Anxiety
Like a menace it looms
Tempting me to, over time,
Myself neglect, eventually loathe.
Having sat at bay
For however long it would take
For a moment, vulnerable to come,
Attack, sudden and inescapable
Is wrought with preoccupation.
Single-minded focus on that
Which must, at all costs, be avoided
Makes a pure hell indeed.
The feed-back loop, persistent, pervasive,
Triggers my mind, weary, exhausted
To invite the demon to stay
With full escort, my faculty,
Until payment is remitted in whatever form.
Weighing between a mind-numbing
Which fattens wallets,
The intellectual shame in calling upon a diety
Formerly know as “God,”
Or the utter white-knuckled grasping
Onto the next breath… and then the next,
I know there are no reassurances.
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